DOC: SO TELL ME ABOUT YOUR CHILDHOOD
ME: WHAT ABOUT MY CHILDHOOD?
DOC:TELL ME ABOUT YOUR UPBRINGING
ME: LOOK DOC… IF U WANT THIS CONVERSATION TO GO ANYWHERE U GON HAVE TO BE MORE SPECIFIC.
DOC: CONVERSE…
ME: WHAT?
DOC: NEVER MIND, IM SORRY… SO TELL ME AS A CHILD WHAT WAS A NORMAL DAY LIKE IN YOUR HOUSEHOLD?
ME: WELL…
I WAS SLEEP IN MY BED TIL I HEARD A BOOM/ (ADD SOUND EFX)
IT MUST BE MY PARENTS FIGHTING IN THE LIVING ROOM/
WE NORMALLY EAT CEREAL & WATCH CARTOONS/
BUT TODAY I WATCH MOM NURSE HER OWN WOUNDS/
POPS GONE… WE WANT SEE HIM NO TIME SOON/
EVERY TIME THEY FIGHT SHE MAKE THE NIGGA MOVE/
THE ONLY PLACE THAT FEEL SAFE IS A NIGGA ROOM/
AND I ONLY LEAVE… WHEN I GO TO SCHOOL/
I HATE SCHOOL… SCHOOL HAS TOO MANY RULES/
ITS TOO HARD TO MAKE FRIENDS ALL THE KIDS CRUEL/
ON THE 1ST DAY OF SCHOOL, SOME BULLY TOOK MY SHOES/
THAT DAY I LEARNED HOW IT FELT LOSE/
I WASNT HURT… I WAS CONFUSED/
CUZ NORMALLY IM THE ONE THAT GETS TO LEAVE THE BRUISE/
TWO YEARS LATER I ROBBED HIM FOR HIS JEWELS/
PLUS I USED THAT TOOL TO FIX HIS ATTITUDE/
NOW HE KNOW HOW IT FEELS TO LOSE/
DOC: DO U FEEL THAT YOU EMPOWERED WHEN U HURT SOMEONE?
WAIT DONT ANSWER THAT… YOU SAID THE DAY U WERE BULLIED U LEARNED WHAT IT FELT LIKE TO LOSE.
ME: YEAH SO…
DOC: BUT YOU ALSO ADMITTED THAT THE BULLY DIDNT DAMAGED U PHYSICALLY.. JUST MENTALLY. CORRECT?
ME: CORRECT…
DOC: U EVER TAKE THE TIME TO THINK ABOUT YOUR ACTIONS?
ME: NO.
DOC: U KNOW THE SAME MENTAL DAMAGE & HURT YOU EXPERIENCED THAT DAY… IS THE SAME PAIN YOUR VICTIMS FEEL?